desperate

I'm desperate for a day away - away from everything.

I've been looking forward to the full-day silent retreat all semester. It was going to be this Saturday. Got an email this morning saying it was cancelled because only 2 people signed up.

Frankly, I wanted to cry. But I had no energy to - let's just say today was a busy day. It's been a busy semester, and the next few weeks are going to be even worse. I had been setting aside this day and counting on it, and then suddenly that all vanished.

Well, I'm still going to take my day of silence - and perhaps going alone will make it even better. but the shake up made me realize how desperate I've been for this day.

I keep wanting to say that I can't wait for the semester to be over... but really I fear coming upon the next week and I'm too scared to dream of the time after... I'm not going to let his happen next year. This is my last semester of being over-committed.

i hope