when measuring profit or net gain, there is always a point on the graph where the line starts to fall. The effort and costs reach a point where they begin to outweigh the profit.
I feel like I have crested the mountain, only to realize that I am now slipping down the other side.
My school work is suffering, my relationships are being put on hold, and I feel like I'm slowly wasting away...
problem is - I have absolutely no idea how to change things. There is nothing I can drop - I just have to keep holding on to this scraggly thread.
The only thing that is keeping me going is Spring Break. I'm going home for the whole week and bringing two friends. We are celebrating my mom's 50th, exploring Ambler, Philly, and NYC, and heading out to Eastern to visit some friends.
I just want to be home right now. I don't know why I was so eager to move so far away from my family. Thankfully, my roommates have really made our apartment feel like home. I'm never more at ease than when the four of us are home together talking and cooking and enjoying each other's company.
I just wish I knew how I could take some of the pressure off. I just can't say no to these things that I love being committed to.
bah
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