i've done it again

It seems I've fallen into another tipsy-turvy season

leading myself astray - knowing that in a short time I will be unavoidably grounded

for now, that's ok (I say this knowing the future me will look back, shake her head, and say "never again, never again" only to once again 'do it again')
but, like I said,
for now, that's ok

I wish I didn't stress so much about money, or about disappointing my family, or letting friends down
but who am I without my worries? I have always been defined by my anxiety, my over-thinking/interpreting, my rambling of situations that just are what they are -

I like to think I'm moving past that, but I'm not so sure I am.
perhaps I'm just changing the way it looks




sometimes I just wish I were 30 already, I can't wait for my 30s