catching up...

Everyday I have a thought about something that I want to post here. Some theory I have, or observation I've made...
and then I finally make it to my computer and all my desire and motivation to write is gone.
so, to make up for lost time, here are snippets of all the things I've wanted to write about lately. None of them are supposed to be related...


it is extremely windy this evening. and last night I had the urge to walk home in the freezing rain (a gracious ride from my father kept that urge at bay)

study table etiquette at the library is like urinal etiquette in a men's bathroom - except during finals week when you just hope you can find one open

I've been noticing lately that the phrase "we are our parents" is true. I'd like to think I'm a pleasant blend of the two.

I think God rewards us for faithfulness, and I also believe that our blessings are not just for ourselves, or our own work. A blessing given to me may be so that I can pass other blessings to others. in other words, I'm not ashamed of what I've been given, and I hope to be a good steward of it all.

I have amazing sisters, and I've realized that I really love being home. even when the fighting is there just as much as it used to be, it's pleasant and familiar in a way.

also on family, I never realized to what great extent we don't put a show on for our immediate family - and to what extent we DO for everyone else. everyone is an actor in their own life

I don't want to drink until I'm 21. I've always had somewhat of this mentality, because of my fathers morals really. But when the opportunities increased, I realized that I didn't have the will power. Then someone other than my father, someone I had a lot of respect for, said they waited - and wanted me to wait. Drinking isn't a big deal, but I want to be able to say I waited till I was legal. I've had a small drink here and there in the past, but not anymore. I have 6 months. hell, if I can wait this one out with all the opportunities present, maybe I can be confident on waiting for sex too! (mostly meant in pun)

I have a grudge problem. enough said

I don't think men realize it, and I don't think most women want to admit it, but women think about sex, too. and sometimes, a lot! we lust, we have fantasies, and when men flaunt their bodies in front of us it drives us crazy! no one can be singled out for blame, though. some girls (a lot of girls) get a high out of making a guy lust a little. it's a sin, don't cause your brother to fall, but like all sins it is desirable.

on that note: the church doesn't know how to talk about sex - and by this I don't just mean the building and the staff that go along with it, I mean the people that make up the body of Christ

I play games with myself to test my will-power. Over the past year I've been improving significantly. I'm proud of myself.

I have a crush... I admit it. I'm allowed. but that's all it is and nothing more

should the focus on the environment be on micro issues or macro issues. I say macro. I mean, of course both - but definitely more macro.

that's all for now...

cheers